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bowen school is so weird that it's great. i'm helping anne with movie club. the kids make a plot and their characters and costumes. they're all being aliens and it's so funny. all the young, or younger...like mid 20s, go to anne's apartment every wednesday and order tons of food and watch lost. i don't watch lost but it just seems like it would be so much fun, they're all so excited about it the whole afternoon.
i started talking to danny again, not because i'm mad at will or anything, but mostly because i want to talk to whoever i want, i shouldn't feel guilty about talking to his friend. i realized that i don't want a boyfriend, i hate commitment. not even commitment, i just don't like how when a guy likes you, he talks to you 24/7 and forgets his friends and it's all about you. i know girls are supposed to like that, but i'm just attracted to chasing a guy. and i find it really unattractive when a guy chases you.
i can't stop thinking about loyola. warm weather, a new atmosphere, and new people. ugh. i don't know what to do. i'm going back tomorrow to school to go to english. i'm then running errands to get my new mailbox key, pick up my birthday present wherever my new mailbox is from lauren, decorate my neighbor, laura's door because she gave me and kelsey valentines and decorated our door.
today's my nana di's birthday, except she's the one who passed away in november. it's sad because this is the first birthday without her. it's also my first birthday without her on monday. i miss the way her house smelt when she used to live there, her sweaters, her cards and notes that we would get on days when it wasn't even a holiday, mine being labeled "precious."
i started talking to danny again, not because i'm mad at will or anything, but mostly because i want to talk to whoever i want, i shouldn't feel guilty about talking to his friend. i realized that i don't want a boyfriend, i hate commitment. not even commitment, i just don't like how when a guy likes you, he talks to you 24/7 and forgets his friends and it's all about you. i know girls are supposed to like that, but i'm just attracted to chasing a guy. and i find it really unattractive when a guy chases you.
i can't stop thinking about loyola. warm weather, a new atmosphere, and new people. ugh. i don't know what to do. i'm going back tomorrow to school to go to english. i'm then running errands to get my new mailbox key, pick up my birthday present wherever my new mailbox is from lauren, decorate my neighbor, laura's door because she gave me and kelsey valentines and decorated our door.
today's my nana di's birthday, except she's the one who passed away in november. it's sad because this is the first birthday without her. it's also my first birthday without her on monday. i miss the way her house smelt when she used to live there, her sweaters, her cards and notes that we would get on days when it wasn't even a holiday, mine being labeled "precious."
